Self Care Saturday: Current Thoughts

“Growth is painful, change is painful, but nothing is as painful as staying somewhere you don’t belong”

Hey guys! Happy Saturday, I hope everyone had a beautiful week. For the past couple months I have been in such an awkward place. On today’s Self Care Saturday I want to talk about the struggle of working harder. Do you ever feel like you could be pushing yourself so much more than you are? I remember seeing a quote that said something along the lines of “there are people out there who are less qualified than you, doing the things that you want to do, simply because they believe in themselves and try,” This quote hit me HARD. Isn’s it absolutely mad that we have all been gifted with unique talents and abilities and instead of really cultivating them and making things happen, we allow ourselves to get lazy and waste the gifts that we have been generously given. Deep down, I know that I am not working nearly hard as I could be. There is a greater force inside of me that I continuously ignore. Quite frankly, I have gotten lazy. I fell off my flow and it has been hard to get back on my game. I strongly believe that I am not where I could be, that I’m made for more and selling myself short. There are so many different factors that can cause someone to get lazy and stumble off their path, environment being the main one. If you surround yourself about lazy complainers who make excuses you will eventually become one of those people. If you surround yourself around people who constantly doubt their abilities, you too will soon find yourself doubting yourself. It’s so important to keep note of your company.

I graduated college in 2019. I went from being surrounded by bright eyed 20-somethings who are confident and eager, to working at a job with people who want to collect a paycheck and go home without making any connections. After working there for a little over a year, it is becoming more and more clear the impact that my work environment has on me. The low energy is contagious.

At the same time I have struggled with friends who are holding me back. Not because they are mean, bad people, but because their mindsets are different than the one that I am trying so hard to adopt. I have dealt with a lot of confusion regarding how to move forward with certain friendships. Do I continue to keep these friendships or do I distance myself since it isn’t beneficial for me? There isn’t one clear cut way to approach this, not every situation is the same. For me, I have found that communication is always key. If you can talk to your loved ones about how you’re feeling, that’s great! See if you can come to a mutual understanding and continue the friendship in a healthy fashion. Unfortunately, these conversations aren’t always easy and they usually result in arguments. If that happens, know that there is nothing wrong with standing up for what you want. You are entitled to edit your life in a way that is healthy for you. It isn’t your job to make sure that everyone understands your choices.

I feel like these past few months have been a major transition period for me. My Pattern said that this would happen during this period and I totally see it to be true. It’s uncomfortable and awkward but overall it’s exciting. Comment below if you relate to anything I rambled on about. I’m sure I’m not the only one dealing with this! Let’s grow together.

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